I'M SORRY, I'M SORRY. KEEP THAT THOUGHT.
I didn't really like to dress up and it was something that, you know, I had to do, and it wasn't a pleasurable thing for me. But I just, you know, missed my father, you know, the physical part of my father. I, I wanted to touch that physical part. I wanted to hold that physical part. It was, it was all right to know that he was taken care of and he was gone, that essence of what my father was, that, that equality amongst men, you know, but I wanted the physical part and I wanted, I wanted him back. And it was the first time that I really cried. The first time that I had really let go after his death because Medgar was, was more than just someone who was on the television screen for the whole nation to see. To me, he was mine, you know. He was my father and all the feelings about having to dress up and, and wear a tie and all that, really were kind of insignificant when it came down to knowing that I was really going to be without a father for the rest of my life. You know, my real father, for the rest of my life. And that really hit me at that point—very sad, very sad
THIS WILL BE TAKE EIGHT.