What did you do? You had been hopeful up to that point, but then--
Yeah, I, I'm sorry.
I had been up until Sunday night I had, ah, thought positively and I guess never really considered that, ah, I might not be walking out of the yard at the end of this siege. Sunday night that feeling changed. And, ah, I had the opportunity to find some paper and some pen and write my family a letter. And, ah, in that letter I, I communicated to them that, ah, that I loved them all very much and that I was sorry that this had evolved into what it had but that, ah, that I was sure we'd meet again some day.